It's all over when they say 'I Do'

Well... It's done... they tied the knot... did the deed.... tended to business! Ok, so perhaps a little too far, but you follow what I mean. And how beautiful it was, clear blue skies, wind free, sunshine all around. And the dress, oh my the dress. Deep peacock blue, very 20's. Mine on the other hand... Well, I felt more beautiful than I had in a long time. The cake went down a treat, which is a relief considering how much time I spent on it! I have honestly never seen two people so happy, which made me feel odd. I was more happier for them than anyone. But it really brought home the fact that I have noone, I'm not even CLOSE. Now I'm not talking marriage bound relationships. I'm talking new and exciting relationships that may possibly mean something more than being friends. But how likely is that! Anyway... I digress. With the wedding out the way, now come the big plans for shipping me off to Uni, silverwear and all. How fast this has come around since a time when I thought I had months to spare. Time really does flie when you are havving fun, being stressed, studying, gaining friends, making cakes and all the other jazz (or salsa music in my case) that fills the time! It only feels like yesterday I was stood at the front door watching the various fireworks bring in the new year, thinking to myself: 'This it it! The big year! The one where so much will happen. The expected... and the unexpected!'. It hardly seems possible. I must apologise for a crap entry such as this, as to me it feels rather stinted and boring, but at the moment I am unable to think in a logical, coherent manner, due to all the emotions I have. I honestly don't know whether I am coming or going, and it doesn't help that I can't really talk about them, as I don't really know what they are! Lonely mixed with doubt, mixed with excitement, mixed with amazement, mixed with sadness, mixed with happiness... Are you keeping up? Cos I am just about there. Oh my how very confusing, I shall leave you on that confusing note and leave you to make your mind up as to how much of a wreck I am. I bid you a goodnight... I shall visit soon... when I find coherent, sensicle inspiration!