Good To Be Here

So 5 months down the line and not much has happened really! Well I say not much, but it has been brilliant to see how my first year of uni unfolded and how my relationships changed. I guess this is the most perfect time to post, cos my first year is over, and now comes the whole reflection! Are you sitting comfortably... then I will begin. September I promised myself that I would keep this blog to show how my first year of Uni unfolded. And the fact that I posted rather a lot at the beginning of the year is probably a combination of many things: Bordom! A good way to vent frustration! And the novelty of it being new, I suppose! But those things all changed; how much time did I really have to post to a website that hardly anyone would see! Even my mother gave up on it me thinks! So I guess that takes care of the novelty factor! As for the venting, I have 2 possible solutions for this: 1) I have people to vent to now. I have wonderfully understanding people, who have hearts of gold, the sense of humour like a standup comedian and love that keeps you safe and sound in the knowledge that if anything happens, they will be there for you! (That's the sentimental reason!) 2) I don't have to do it anymore! Pure and Simple! I don't have the unhappyness which I think was keeping me coming back, which I couldn't talk to people about. To quote Samantha and Charlotte from Sex And The City: S: How often do you feel happy? C: Everyday. S: You feel happy everyday? C: Not all day everyday. But Everyday! And there it is. I can honestly say I have felt happy for at least 5 mins every day! And a lot of that has to do with the people at uni! And just the fact that I have been doing things which MEAN I'm happier! Which leads me nicely onto the course! I honestly couldn't have found something which is more fun, more rewarding yet more challenging in the whole world. If I do this till I die, I will know I have made the right choice and can die a happy woman! Although the last school I was in was challenging, I got through to them in the end! I think when I finally started teaching them (science, literacy, maths) they began to see me more as a teacher, and I got as much respect from them as they gave to the other teacher, which is still no where near as much as I expected! I don't know how they have gotten away with it! The three week placement almost killed me. I'm sure it did. It was so tiring, and I was also pre-occupied with the fact that I was spending the last 3 weeks with my honey, be for he and I left for home, which FYI - Completely different ends of the country! A southern boy dating a Yorkshire girl, with a 6 hour drive inbetween! Not the most ideal situation, hence the preoccupation! Oh le Boyfriend!! Oh le gorgeousness! I can honestly say that he has made this year wonderful. My friends were my rocks through the year also! I tell you, I'm one lucky girl! They were there for me when I needed them and I loved them for it. But If le Boyfriend hadn't been there, it wouldn't have been quite the same! There is a difference between being loved by your friends and being loved by someone who loves you in a more boyfriendly way. It has honestly made me feel worth something again. I always knew I was a good friend... but never thought I could be girlfriend material; never thought I could be attractive to another person; never thought anyone would want to be with me. But I'm starting to realise that isn't the case. He has made me feel worth while again. It's funny, cos when I say this to people they say that they hope it won't all go away if something happens. But no, he has helped me to build my self confidence and to realise that I deserve to be happy and with someone, and not just watch everyone else hook up! I was thinking the other day about him, our first kiss and whenever he hugs me, and I geninely get butterflies in my stomach. A guy that can make you swoon from over 300 miles away can't be all that bad! So all in all, a successful year me thinks. I love you all, gorgous friends. And I am so excited about moving into my new house in September. My house, My room, My friends. Who could ask for anything more wonderful! Ttfn people. You're all wonderful! xx