Sweet Home.. Alabama

Ok, so it's not Alabama, it's York. And I know I complained last time I was home that I was bored out my mind. But I am really having missing-home pangs. To be honest I'm not even sure if it is the missing home, I think it's just the people. I miss my mum and her partner; I miss my dad and his wife; I miss my grandparents. I may even miss my friends...

Then I think back to Christmas, and just how much I was wanting to come back to Uni. I missed all my friends. I missed my room. I missed my own space, independace and doing my own thing. I'm not saying that I hated it back home. But after being 'alone' for so many months, it was an adjustment I had to make for 3 weeks. I had to consider other people again, which was an adjustment in itself. I think I was ready to leave home. I was ready to live on my own and make my own decisions. And yes it's a learning curve, but I wouldn't go back for the world.

So now I'm sitting here thinking why the hell do you feel like this. You can't have it both ways, Missy!.... Hmmm I know, I shall have my family move here (well not Chester... Maybe Liverpool) and then I will have my own space and see my family on a regular basis. I think when you miss things like your Grandma's birthday (which I haven't missed in all my 18 years) and your Dad's birthday, then it really hits home just how far away you are. Two trains worth and a hell of a lot of faf, to be precise.

I know this feels unsumarised, unconcluded (is that even a word) and unfinished, but when you're confused you don't have a resolution straight away. Gimme some time and another trip home (coming up soon) and i'll be back to asking you 'Who lives in York, again?' Yes. That will be the case........ if you get me. For now I have cakey goodness to keep me company! Ttfn x

How Sweet It Is To Be Loved By You

Ok... so in the past two weeks that I haven't written, things have taken a turn, very much, for the better. You could almost say I am more happier now than ever. And this thing is you may ask? A Boyfriend! (hehe). Hold on, let me say that again... A Boyfriend! I'm still getting used to this term but, through no fault of my own, I think part of me won't allow it. It's definately nice to feel wanted, and yes the loneliness that I always used to feel, even in a crowd of people, has disappeared. But I am still struggling with someone wanting to be with me when there are so many other girls he could have chosen. I have been 'the friend' for so long that my feet are still adjusting to the newly purchased 'girlfriend shoes'. On a more positive note, which I'm sure one is supposed to talk about after finding somebody; Boy is it a nice to have a Boyfriend (when the other stuff doesn't get in the way). I think most people would describe it as the (dare I say it as it is closely related to the 'W' word) 'Honeymoon period'. The talking till early hours of the morning, the snuggling up to watch films, the snogathon sessions! I have to admit, I forgot how much fun making out could be! Anyhoo, I digress into an area most of you probably don't want to think about. But come on, we've all been there! I know my one of my best mates went through that phase and very much enjoyed it. Apart from the newness of it all and the stuff that comes hand in hand with it, have I told you how amazing he is? Now I know it's only early days, and I don't know everything about him, but the more I find out the more I like him. I fall for him a little more every day. Is that how it's supposed to be?! He likes the same games that I do. Same music. Same Dvds. Same food tastes. And on top of this he seems to appreciate me for who I am, and doesn't expect me to be anything different. He even thinks it's cool that I will sit and watch while he plays on the Xbox, rather than ask him to turn his attention to me! (However it never hurts to give him the occasional kiss at save points-just to remind him of my presence!) Anyhoo, the washing is finished, and he is kicking ass on the xbox, so this is where I leave you. Hopefully only at the beginning of what will hopefully be more posts to come in the life of me and, now it seems, my new, lovely boyfriend. Ttfn x